To those that know our family is about to make ONE BIG CHANGE!! We are
separating from the military. This is one huge and scary step that we are about to make. We are not
separating on our terms. The Air Force is pushing us out. So that in itself can be very scary. I have had my moments of tears, anxiety, excitement, anger, and relief. As I sit here typing this the tears are running down my face. The military has taken us to many places that otherwise we would never have gone to. We have made lifelong friends that have become family to us. It is hard to say those good byes and yet still look forward to what God has planned for us.
When the news came down that we were going to be
separated I immediately
panicked. My first reaction. I cried out to God and His arms were instantly wrapped around me. I cried and cried but in the back ground God kept saying "Everything is going to be all right. I know what I am doing, just trust" Trust, that is a big thing for me to do. For those of you who know me well I like to control things and right now everything is out of my hands except for the way I react to the situation.
So what happens now..... Well we are moving home. Home, wow I thought it would have been years since I would be able to say that. Texas is home! We are headed that way. Shawn is going to finish his nursing degree and after that get a job. We plan on finally being able to buy a house after his school is complete and he is gainfully employed. Our adoption plans for a third child are going to be placed on hold for now.
There is a song that fits us perfectly for where we are at right now. Here are the lyrics:
when you don't want to face another day
seems like your life's one big mistake
failures from your former self chase you
listen close so you know what to do
you may not see it
you may not feel it
but
I'm holding you tightly
your
spirit is near me
so hold on hold on
it will not be long till its all over
child hold on hold on
lay your weary head upon my shoulder
the pain is beating down so faithfully
but my love is more
faithful you will see
and the winds will show no mercy for your face
but your heart is safe secure inside my grace
and you may not see it
and you may not feel it
but
im holding you tightly and your
spirit is with me so
hold on hold on it will not be long
till its all over
child hold on hold on
lay your weary head upon my shoulder
and you may not see it
and you may not feel it
but
im holding you tightly and
your
spirit is near me so hold on
hold on hold on hold on
child hold on hold on no
it wont be too long oh hold on
hold on it will not be long till its all
over child hold on hold on lay your weary head upon my shoulder
hold on hold on it will not be long till its all over
hold on hold on lay your weary head upon my shoulder
if you
don't want to face another day hold on child hold on
.
