Out of my devestation this week came an overwhelming amount of peace. Now it has taken awhile to get to this place but I have made it. This past weekend I had my time of yelling at God and asking Him WHY!!! I shed many tears and fought off depression but through the grace of God I have come out on the other side.
God all ready knew that this would happen and he placed a special lady in my life to help me through. Now don't get me wrong our friends have been the best during this time and without them as well we wouldn't have made it. But there was one special lady that spoke truth to me. She let me vent, be angry with God and then she put me in my place. Of course she did it out of love. But I needed her and God used her to speak to me. She asked me a few very tough questions and those were: "Have you given your desire to have children completely over to God? Have you laid your desire at the foot of the cross and walked away from it? And finally Are you able to tell God whatever the outcome I will still serve you?" My response to her was this: "You know Shawn asked me these very questions a few months ago and my reply to him was that I was not ready to give that up to God because I was afraid of what His answer to me would be." She then told me you know what you need to do Lay it down and walk away and out of that God will bless you.
She stressed to me that if I did not leave my burden at the cross then God could not truely bless me. The more that I hold onto my burden the more trials I am going to go through because is trying to teach me to just trust Him. She also encouraged me to be like Hannah. God belseed her bearaness and her faithfulness with Samuel and look what kind of man Samuel turned out to be.
So this week I have been prayering and seeking the face of God in this matter. I have finally laid down my desire to have children at His feet and I have walked away. I know that God's plans are better than I could even begin to imagine for me. He sees the whole picture and I see just a tiny puzzle piece. So I know I just need to trust him.
Some of the passages that I have clinged to our now my foundation for this new season of life that I am in. They are:
2 Peter 1:3 "His divine power has given us EVERYTHING we NEED for life and godliness through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness."
1 Peter 4:12-19 "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. (13) But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. (14) If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you. (15) If you suffer, it should be not as a murderer or thief or an other kind of criminal or even as a meddler. (16) However, if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear the name. (19) So then, those who suffer according to God's will should commit themselves to their faithful Creator and continue to do good."
1 Peter 5:6 &10 (6) "Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. (10) And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm, and steadfast."
So there is my heart laid out. I want to thank everyone for their prayers. I have felt them and needed them. I rest in the fact that I know God has great plans for Shawn and I. I can't wait to see His plan unfold.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Our New Addition!!
So some of ya'll know what happened to us yesterday. We got a phone call at o12:15pm wanting to know if we would like to take in a baby. Of course we said YES!!!!!!!!! She was born October 13, 2008 at 8:40 pm she was 6.5 pounds and 19 inches long! She is so precious. God has overwhelmed us with his goodness this week. A new car and a new baby to put into the car.
Now the journey is going to be a long one with lots of ups and downs. Right now she is considered a Foster child but this is how it works. Eventually her status will change but it may take awhile before it does. So please be in prayer for us as we start this journey.
So last night was definitely a long night. We were up about every hour and a half. Not much sleep but there are NO complaints here!!!!! I enjoyed every minute of it. Shawn took a couple of shifts and did fabulous with her. We are enjoying our time with her and can't wait for her to meet all of our friends and family!
Friday, October 10, 2008
What a way to end the Week!!!!
So today we found out that the insurance agency totaled our car out. Of course we wanted this just because if they fixed up the van we did not feel safe that it would run right. They say after a car is in a wreck it just never drives the same again. So of course as many of y'all know Shawn and I seem to like challenges. hahahaha Shawn also found out yesterday that he has a funeral Friday and then one on Saturday. So here is our delima that we were faced with. The insurance company was only extending out our rental car until Monday Oct. 13. So we had really only 2 days to search for a car. Shawn spent all afternoon yesterday looking at cars online.
The car search:
So we headed out last night after all my kids left for the search. We started at the ford place and we found an explorer that we fell in love with. It had the 3rd row seating and was leather. It was in our price and the milage was okay. So they talked us into taking it home for awhile to help us decide if this was the right vehicle. We told each other before we bought that unless the deal was so amazing that we could not pass up then we would go home for a night and think about it. We then ended up at the Chevy place. The salesman took us to the Trailblazers and we first started off with a new one. The price scared me because it was not in our price range. Well the salesman said lets fun the numbers and see what we can get it for. So he did and the monthly price was out of range. Now take into consideration that our down payment went on our van 5 months ago. So we were looking at no down payment. Well he was going to put us into a used trailblazer and when we still weren't satisfied we then told him we would go home tonight and think about it. We also told him we were leaning more towards the Explorer. He asked us to give him one more minute and so we did. He came back and with only $50 dollars more than what we were paying per month he could get us into the 2008 Trailblazer with only 96 miles on it. Plus we also go an extended warranty of 6 years 100,000 bumper to bumper. So it was the dealbreaker and we walked away with a brand new car!!!!!
God is so Amazing!!!!! We have been praying since Saturday that God would bless us with the right car. And we have been blessed. So God has been graceful towards us and blessed us even though we don't deserve it.
As far as my medical injuries go, I am still having some back and hip problems. When I am on the medicine that the doc gave me I feel fine but when they wear off it is a different story. I am suppose to start physical therapy here soon so hopefully that will help out. But those are minor problems I could be worse off. I am just happy that I walked away with minimum scratches and bruises. Again God protected me!!!! He placed a protection around the van and held me close.
Oh and on the upside of things as well. Shawn got accepted into IDMT school. So he goes April 24, 2009 to school and will be gone until June 24, 2009. After that we could come back here or they could move us somewhere else. So we shall see where God will take us.
So there is the update!
The car search:
So we headed out last night after all my kids left for the search. We started at the ford place and we found an explorer that we fell in love with. It had the 3rd row seating and was leather. It was in our price and the milage was okay. So they talked us into taking it home for awhile to help us decide if this was the right vehicle. We told each other before we bought that unless the deal was so amazing that we could not pass up then we would go home for a night and think about it. We then ended up at the Chevy place. The salesman took us to the Trailblazers and we first started off with a new one. The price scared me because it was not in our price range. Well the salesman said lets fun the numbers and see what we can get it for. So he did and the monthly price was out of range. Now take into consideration that our down payment went on our van 5 months ago. So we were looking at no down payment. Well he was going to put us into a used trailblazer and when we still weren't satisfied we then told him we would go home tonight and think about it. We also told him we were leaning more towards the Explorer. He asked us to give him one more minute and so we did. He came back and with only $50 dollars more than what we were paying per month he could get us into the 2008 Trailblazer with only 96 miles on it. Plus we also go an extended warranty of 6 years 100,000 bumper to bumper. So it was the dealbreaker and we walked away with a brand new car!!!!!
God is so Amazing!!!!! We have been praying since Saturday that God would bless us with the right car. And we have been blessed. So God has been graceful towards us and blessed us even though we don't deserve it.
As far as my medical injuries go, I am still having some back and hip problems. When I am on the medicine that the doc gave me I feel fine but when they wear off it is a different story. I am suppose to start physical therapy here soon so hopefully that will help out. But those are minor problems I could be worse off. I am just happy that I walked away with minimum scratches and bruises. Again God protected me!!!! He placed a protection around the van and held me close.
Oh and on the upside of things as well. Shawn got accepted into IDMT school. So he goes April 24, 2009 to school and will be gone until June 24, 2009. After that we could come back here or they could move us somewhere else. So we shall see where God will take us.
So there is the update!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
A bad Saturday!
So here is how my Saturday October 4, 2008 went. My parents had been in town for the week and I had just gotten back from driving them to Birmingham Alabama to catch a plane home. On my way back into Warner Robins I thought to myself do I want to go home and nap and then get something to eat or get something to eat and then nap. Well I opted for the later. I drove myself to Sonic, splurged and grabbed a burger and a soda. After I got my lunch I headed off to eat it at home. I took our usual route home. As I made my left onto Moody road I had just picked up speed to about 25 mph when out of nowhere a red pickup truck comes flying across the road and low and behold right into the side of the van. I have the right of way on this road and the guy that hit me was suppose to stop. He was coming so fast that I didn't even see him coming until it was too late. I couldn't even break. Needless to say the guy broadsided me and pinned me into my car on the driver's side. The cop thinks he was going about 40 mph +.
Luckily on this road on Saturday's it is very busy so I had lots of witnesses. I finally was able to get out of the car on my own, crawling over to the passenger side. I escaped with a 1st degree burn on my left forearm and a horrible back/neck/chest ache. When I got out and looked at the damage that had been done I wondered how I escaped with such minor injuries. The fireman wanted to know the same. The Grace of God!!!!! My angels hugged me close and protected me. What a wonderful experience. I am so thankful that my life was spared and that I was not hurt badly.
The other guy walked away without a scratch on him and a bad attitude. I did have to go to the hospital for x-rays and to get my burn checked out. The x-rays came back fine and my burn will heal in time. In fact this morning it looks even better.
So you might be asking "Where is Shawn?" Well, the government calls :) Shawn had a detail (funeral) in Tennessee that he had to attend this weekend. He left on Friday and won't be back until today. So he has been stuck in a hotel room trying to cope and do the husband thing from there. I have an amazing husband. Within just a few short hours he had one of our good friends meet me at the ER, called the police department to find out details, called USAA our insurance agent to start a claim, and got our rental car reserved. He did all of this traveling on a van back to the hotel on Sat. But when the men are away that is when things go wrong. So you just get used to it and deal with it. Plus if God didn't think I could handle it he would not have put me in this situation.
I would like to ask for your prayers this week. As most of you know Shawn and I have only one car. We will have a rental car for at least 30 days. We think our van will be totaled out so we will have to start the process to look for a new one. I am just asking the Lord to help pave the path before us to find the perfect car and the perfect interest rate :)
I am doing okay just really sore. I am thankful for just the soreness because it could have been worse. Below are the pictures that were taken with the cell phone. I will post more pictures once we go and look at the van.
Luckily on this road on Saturday's it is very busy so I had lots of witnesses. I finally was able to get out of the car on my own, crawling over to the passenger side. I escaped with a 1st degree burn on my left forearm and a horrible back/neck/chest ache. When I got out and looked at the damage that had been done I wondered how I escaped with such minor injuries. The fireman wanted to know the same. The Grace of God!!!!! My angels hugged me close and protected me. What a wonderful experience. I am so thankful that my life was spared and that I was not hurt badly.
The other guy walked away without a scratch on him and a bad attitude. I did have to go to the hospital for x-rays and to get my burn checked out. The x-rays came back fine and my burn will heal in time. In fact this morning it looks even better.
So you might be asking "Where is Shawn?" Well, the government calls :) Shawn had a detail (funeral) in Tennessee that he had to attend this weekend. He left on Friday and won't be back until today. So he has been stuck in a hotel room trying to cope and do the husband thing from there. I have an amazing husband. Within just a few short hours he had one of our good friends meet me at the ER, called the police department to find out details, called USAA our insurance agent to start a claim, and got our rental car reserved. He did all of this traveling on a van back to the hotel on Sat. But when the men are away that is when things go wrong. So you just get used to it and deal with it. Plus if God didn't think I could handle it he would not have put me in this situation.
I would like to ask for your prayers this week. As most of you know Shawn and I have only one car. We will have a rental car for at least 30 days. We think our van will be totaled out so we will have to start the process to look for a new one. I am just asking the Lord to help pave the path before us to find the perfect car and the perfect interest rate :)
I am doing okay just really sore. I am thankful for just the soreness because it could have been worse. Below are the pictures that were taken with the cell phone. I will post more pictures once we go and look at the van.
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