As most of you all know that we are trying to become parents. I was hit this morning by reality that the phrase "We are trying to become parents" is taking God out of the picture. Now please don't get me wrong we pray about every possible child that we are considering. But our mindsets have not changed. I am still trying to control this situation. Some of what brought my realization on was that we had sent our home study off to South Carolina in hopes that 2 kids would be placed with us. So we received a call this morning telling us that they are on hold and that their case worker has a good lead on a forever home for them. Which one is great for the kids but needless to say I took it a little hard. The other situation was a 16 year that was 31 weeks pregnant and wanted to have an abortion. She was a dependent of an Active Duty member so her Dr. that worked in the clinic immediately thought of Shawn. So the Dr. talk with the parent and the child about their options. When they decided on adoption the doctor mentioned Shawn. They would not even consider us because we were not catholic. I am finding that this journey has more valleys than mountain tops.
As I poured out my heart to God this morning, He gently reminded me that I am not in control. He is in control. He knows the children that will be in our home. I just need to rest in Him and be patient. (Which most of you know is hard for me to do) So as I sat there I turned over our child issues again to God. It is a daily thing that I have to do. Sometimes I have to do this multiple times a day. Our biggest desire is to have a family and I think that at times we let this get in the way of God's plans for us.
Shawn is having surgery on February 9. This should help out some of our issues. Most of you know that I have issues. I have PCOS which is causing my infertility. But it can be corrected or helped along with medications. Which I have been on the medications and I was not getting pregnant. This is when my doctor turned to Shawn and wanted him to get checked out. So Shawn's doctor has discovered an issue that can be corrected with surgery. So he is taking one for the team and having surgery. The doctor said that this will increase our chances of conceiving. That is if my body decides to work right.
So please be in prayer for Shawn on February 9. This will be his first surgery and he is a little nervous. As for our family please pray that we can let God do His job and that we will get our hands out of the way.
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